I’m an ancient history

 24.06.2024

I'm ancient history, at least to the people I left behind.

Do I find it sad? Of course I do, but it’s part of life. Everybody will have to move on eventually; it’s nothing personal, but it’s the way of life.

I’ve always taught myself to take things as they are and think of them as part of the cycle. I cannot undo things; what I can do is move forward and hope for something good, great, or better.

And if you’re going to ask me, am I scared of the future? I definitely am, but I’m living in the present, so for that I have to be thankful. I don’t know what the future holds for me; that’s something I know for sure. I just hope that in the coming days, weeks, months, or even years, everything will eventually make sense. And once I have a sit-down with myself, I’ll be saying, “That’s why it happened” or “It makes sense now.”

I’m a spectator of my own reality show, and I go through things every day. It has its ups and downs, like every TV rating. But one thing’s for certain: “After every storm comes a rainbow.” I’m currently experiencing never-ending heavy storms and rains, but like every weather issue, it ends.

As for my friends that I have or had? Well, they’re or they’ve been part of my life, and I have to thank them for being that eternal sunshine during every cloudy moment I experience. I miss the life I left behind, but I’m living in the now.

I read somewhere that whenever you feel that something is not working as it should, think of how you would feel if you were not experiencing this now. Living and working overseas made me miss my family and the simple things you get to experience and be grateful for.

Whenever I think of those things, somehow it makes me feel better and uplifted that I’ll be making new memories with them and not missing out on a lot of things one should be grateful for.

I am grateful that I’m still here in the world, really, really grateful. I just hope that as my life progresses, it will eventually get better and that I’ll be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

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